Chronological Age: 14 months, 25 days
Adjusted Age: 11 months, 9 days
Days Home From ACH: 10 months, 21 days
Weight: 19 pounds 8 ounces
Length: 27.5 inches
Samuel will be 15 months old on Saturday. By this point, most parents are BEGGING for life to slow down because their baby will soon be lost to the rambunctious world of toddler hood. I'm dreading 15 months for entirely opposite reasons.
When I think of a 15 month old, I imagine a walking, talking, table-food-eating, sippy-cup-using, increasingly independent child. That thought depresses me. In the past, I have focused on using his adjusted age for milestones. The painful truth is that he's developmentally delayed for even his adjusted age. Essentially, I have a 15 month old that is the size of an average 6-7 month old, that is developmentally on level with a 9 month old. Again, depressing.
The teacher in me refuses to believe that the speed of his development is his and his alone to determine. I know, that with the right form (and amount) of teaching, Samuel can catch up. Because of that, I wear the responsibility like an elephant on my shoulders. Each milestone not met feels like my own failure. If only I knew what more I could do....
As each month passes us by, I wish that I could stop time. I wish I could keep him from turning another month older so that he could catch up! Slow down world, and GROW SAMUEL GROW!