Once he was strapped in, the nurse crammed the bottle of barium into his mouth. I guess I should have thought the whole thing through a little more before we went in. I should have insisted on feeding it to him myself (especially considering his past issues with the bottle.) They had to feed him while he was flat on his back...which was also a concern for me. I continually worry about reflux and aspiration so the idea of him choking or spitting up the barium while strapped down was in the forefront of my mind.
After the initial camera view, Samuel had to have an x-ray every 30 minutes to check on the progress of the barium as it made its way through his digestive tract. He became so agitated that every time a nurse or doctor came near him, he cried hysterically. What a nightmare.
Riding in a hospital wagon. |
Six x-rays later, they decided to put him under the camera again (like they did the first time.) The doctor told us that it looked as if Samuel's appendix was on the wrong side of his body. She said that it could potentially be malrotation which would require a major surgery to correct. We were told to go to our other appointments and to come back later in the day for another look.
The camera view. |
I have to tell you...I kept thinking that there was no way this was going to turn out ok. So when the radiologist gave us the good news, it felt like a miracle (and I don't use that word lightly with all of that we've been through.) I truly appreciate your prayers.
I never, ever, ever take Samuel for granted. I never take for granted that he can do all of the things he does (from something as minor as pooping to something as grand as crawling.) I am so proud of him. However, there is NOTHING like nearly having something taken away from you to make you appreciate it more. Things had become so 'everyday' that I had forgotten what it feels like to look at him and love every single thing about him....his little fat rolls, his pink cheeks, the way he looks at the world with open-mouth wonder. When they told me that he might need surgery (even though it was highly unlikely that anything devastating would happen), I had that same feeling I had when we were in the NICU....that feeling like I would literally die to do anything for him, to have more time with him, to take away any pain.
I am not glad that we had to live through such a stressful and traumatic day. I am glad that I was reminded to appreciate every 'ordinary' day I get with Samuel....they are such a gift from God.
Sounds cheesy...but it's so true.
thank you for this beautiful post, I was so touched with your faith, and your precious little boy is surely blessed to have you for parents. I dearly hope you have more and more "normal" days.
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